i keep losing track of time, like there are just, these gaps in my memory of the day.

today i lost six hours. its almost like a nap? except im still awake? i just? do nothing during these "naps" and once the nap is done i cant really remember much about them.

maybe its dissociation? though i hear dissociation is more like viewing yourself in the 3rd person.

where for those 6 hours today i was just, nothing. im a rotting body without many thoughts, without existing.