i feel like im trapped in a slowly flowing river, heading towards a waterfall.

overall im at peace, though as each day passes on, this feeling that my time is running out keeps growing, i keep wondering, when will the waterfall come?

ive tried looking for a way out of the river, but each time i do the ship im on falls apart, if i spend too much time looking for a way out my current ship will sink.

so im left wondering, do i keep looking and risk losing it all right now? or do i live in peace for now, but suffer later on?

whatever ends up happening, you'd think the future would scare me. though to be honest, this ships been feeling very small these past few months, there really isn't much left to do on this ship. i think any change would be nice at this point.