ive found myself crying through the day again haha,, not for very long, maybe 10 mins max each time. and then like 3 times a day. so uh, thats cool

i feel myself returning to the same kinda mental state i was in as a kid, just, no longer angry i guess.

honestly i think i might be at a all time low, as a kid at my worst things were rough and i felt insane, but thats the thing. i *felt* i had tons of emotions, i was able to make shit and really exist.

nowdays im just, nothing.