i think im warming up to the idea of having kids.

i used to be heavily against having kids and logically i still am because like, in my current state mentally/economics wise theres just, no way it would work out. i'd burn out.

but,, the idea itself, to have something, someone, to pour my attention into, to have something just, bigger than me, to have a purpose, a actual meaning to someone, that, that sounds really nice.