wahoo! things mostly fine! ive been playing a fuck ton of famicom disk system games lately again. feels like im back at home stream wise. been chill been nice. bout all i have to say.

though i do still see myself pushing to be in spaces im not welcome. its weird. so many places welcome me! i have "fans" for lack of a better word. people like me! but noooooo brains gotta push to be around people who dont like me in hopes i can like, i dont fucking know, change there mind? its stupid. i should just be satisfied. and mostly i am, just that little voice in the back of my head wants moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. fucked up!

but whatever, voice is on its way out. \(-_-)\ /(-_- )/

oh! also possible trip to canada coming up in a few months, life, kinda good!